When people hear Michelle Andrew Nicole or MichelleAKJ, they straight away say "oh that strong female" instead of "oh that weak pitiful poor lady". You see, I was VERY emotional on twitter lately; other than spending time catching up with my childhood friend, I'm facing problems with someone in that group of our friends. Right from the start I wasn't hoping for anything because I know things won't happen, yet still secretly wishing for something. Now? I'm sending my best regards from hell, wanting to see him happy and, I deserve someone much more better than him. He's right. He told me that I deserve the best and I do. Not that I think I'm too good for him but I'm actually agreeing to what he told me.
I thought it was my heart playing tricks on me, I thought it was just the kind of feeling you get when you meet someone new that treats you good. But it wasn't. It was something more. Too much, I suppose.
It's really funny how people can treat you so well then suddenly look at you as someone that is the worst person you'll ever find on earth. That's what I became in his eyes. I have no fucking idea what happened but what has happened already happened. Although I got insulted and had cried a few times throughout, I didn't regret a minute knowing him.
There's this Chinese song says - friends advised saying no no but still I believe there's a possibility, it's kinda true if you only look at your present but go back, go back to when you first talk to him to now when everything went downhill. Tell me, do you still think he's worth? There IS a possibility yes but he is definitely not worth your time for what is happening now.
Just thought that I will take the most recent incident to talk about than digging back into my past for all those failed relationships or not-yet-relationship-ed kind of relationships to talk about how bad it feels to be needing to let go. Remember, letting go isn't giving up, letting go is moving on and moving on is being happy.
Thanks for reading, stay happy x
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